Living for YOUR Glory – You'd Lead Me Thru

A couple of things has been running thru my head, it arent exactly many many things, but maybe just a couple can keep me thinking.

Decisions the are never ending…

The Good, The Bad, The Exciting, The Confusing, The Be Open.
Is never about what’s good or what’s bad, but What of LIFE, after all my life is carried by a flow of His Grace.

Righteousness cause you to make the decision of boldness.
It empowers you to dare to make decision. No matter what the outcome is, i am Still Right With You…

My dear friend told me, Maybe is time to let God Define what is GOOD, and not what I, Esther think/define/conclude what is good for me.

Streaming: Love Story – Taylor Swift

Feb 14 19:11pm
Out in the open field after a slow stroll and jog…am waiting for they who went the extra extra mile to finish off their race…

To be in the open where nothing seems to surround..something I always desire whenever I get a chance to… Bonus, What more now I get to blog..

I feel You as close as where my left cheek is…the closeness in my breathe as I took my every step.. Knowing You are running This Race with me, somehow gives me strength to destination.

Oh how i Always love the way You painted the horizon..it never fails to remind me that Life is bigger than myself, than what I desire to achieve before I see You face to face;

A quieten heart is what I walk away with on Every meeting as such with You .

Streaming: All I can say – Chasen

Time passes so quickly that I don’t even at times have time for myself or You.

Time, thou it passes so quickly I still give thanks to You even in the midst of my daily doings and actions.

You don’t need to wait for me to have time or set aside time just to sit down to be with You, You were just here right with me in my every breathe, every moment, every aspect of life doings.

Oh how, You make Yourself So Available for my taking and consumption that it requires no effort from me except the consciousness of it; that You are Here.

The iced vanilla latte has keep me awake thru out the night..Thankfully am on my way home from work now.. As I was in the midst of meeting just now, whispered a “Thank You Lord, for giving me and restoring unto me a healthy body!” that I can labor in Rest and not worry.

This was something I literally walk thru last year. To the point of realization that literally “Every breath comes from You, that Life itself has never seen so Fragile n Precious as before.” Now and then I still think back of the journey previously and muse about what is my current challenges/circumstances as compare to that.

When I start being thankful of every breath I take, that is when Life became as a prize.
Not something i could earn or achieve but simply cause Daddy breathe and give me this very breath, this very temple!

Got reminded of the morning daybreak scene when I was up at Mt Volcano..saw how the village wakes as the horizon changes..waking to a day that to some maybe yet another day of going thru the motion, to some maybe another day filled with hope and expectation they hoping to come thru..All not knowing what is right ahead of them.

To me, it was a moment of seeing thru Daddy’s Eye View…A moment that i saw the village light flickering so tiny..Yet This Creator God that i know, tells me of how much He loves them and came for them..that His heart goes out for them..

“What more you Esther..Nothing is too small, impossible is impossible. Thou small as you think you are, i came just for you and wanna dwell with and in you.”

The Minuteness of Esther YET He made her His Everything…

Stillness.Awed.Sweetness birth forth as she stood there in worship.

Every Morning is a Fresh New Day of Mercies and of Hope, cause He goes before me preparing the day for me!
And i can wake up to the burst of His Light that penetrates thru the cloud-packed surprises and adventures..Thou at times it seems cloudy, thou i dunno whats installed, but i do know (practically/personally/discerning the ways) the heart of the installer!

And It can only be Good!

Streaming: More – Matthew West

“I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I’ll say it again and again
I love you more

And I want you to know
That I’m not letting go
Even when you come undone“

Sent from my bitten fruit mobile…

Can’t believe I haven been blogging on such a long while..blogging on the go it has been something I always wanna do.. And yes u am doing this now!

Somehow thots just seem to flow on the go… The year coming to an end.. Is time to do a thanksgiving entry..having penned down in my own journal has make tis seems needless.

Looking back on my entries I realize I haven been spending time sharing here much as compared.. Yet Lord You have been ever faithful providing me with heart entries..

Life.Work.Ministry.Family.Walk. Where should I start from: destination on the go, I am reaching…

Jesus help me understand..

Streaming: SidewalkPropherts – You love me anyway

Its been a while since i last bask in the sun..
guess the last time i did was during my DiveTrip.

Body longs for a Sunbath today..and so i gave her one despite the laziness in my flesh.

It felt good, to have
The Sun basking it’s light on me and the light shining on the familiar pages..
I come to realize i love having Natural light shining on my bible as i read the word..It makes the scriptures stands out, somehow it looks extremely good on ‘the kinda paper bible uses’.

As i lay there,asking the Lord to shift the clouds away..i began to ponder, how: When in “resting/laying flat/doing noting” mode, i actually ask the Lord to bring out the sun and enjoy the glory of it’s heat and radiance. Wheres as i see plp laboring in the sun, surly they must have wish that the sun will stop emitting such heat/warmth.

Is only when in such “resting mode” that i can withstand the Heat of the day, and actually Enjoy it.

To have the sun basking on my back together with the Sun of Righteousness reflecting in my face and on the inside of Me..it was moment with LOVE.

Streaming: Giving it all away – Sidewalk Prophets

One of my all-time favoriate worshipper..
talk abt passion i dont think many can beat him…ha as he said, he changes his string almost everyday..lol

When can i play like him? – Dunno
But one thing i know, sitting here watching n staring is arent going to help much =)

Drop it Lord!

Whenever i am emotionally not feeling well, i know where i will run to. Because there only one channel, one way, one outlet where i can run to. That’s You. Alone with you. In times of pouring out my heart, in times of pouring out my tears, in times of just simple worship with You..

The immediate natural thot of the result of a worship session, is my soulz is satisfied, my heart is RESTED..and that i have communion with my Lord, in that moment of communion, all emotional burdens fade away, as i redirect all that is within me to He who is larger that all that surrounds..

Have i forgotten that my GOD is a very practical God?
Have i tend to spiritualize things just a little too much, that thinking only the spiritual side is impacted and nothing is done(or at least i wasnt consciousness of) the physical unseen that is starting to take root, thinking He only cures and has the ability to restore my emotional wellbeing?

When it says “All that is withine me Praise the Lord.” – Psalm 103:1. All that is withne me – that is my mind, my soulz, my emotions, and yeah it include intestine,kidney, arms, stomach,windpipe!
ALL that is in me(literally) every organ, every functioning part!

The primary reason we are fearfully wonderfully created is to worship our God, our organs and every part that is Within us, is molded for one sole reason, “So that this temple of the Lord, will always give Him the Glory and Praise.”

When we praise and worship the Lord, not only our spirit responds, but our organs too responds to Praise it’s creator..when we see this organs comes in contact with worship, it jumps at the sound of His voice at the Touch of His hand and a Touch from the Lord, will make that dead organ come ALIVE..

The same power that heals the emotional troubled heart in that worship session, too is the same power that healed the blind and resurrect the dead.

DaddyGod really takes care of His temple..He also got it in place in us a well that contains the river of living waters…Where the rivers of living water flows, there is healing! As i was penning down my thots, my Lord just whispered

“And Your tongue is the Regulator for this river of living water, small as it is, it is vital.”

And when we activate the regulator (praying in tongues) we allow the water to churn and flow, rather than jam and stale it, and when your organs float in this “living water” how can it not have life and be feeble!?

Lord, i love it when You comes to my level to impart that Faith and that vision(cartoon image of organs dancing before HIM), that one thing i know will help reminds me of when i come before you, not only am i lying down all my emotional baggage but also i lay down the organs that is affecting my temple. I lay it before you and see every part of me, jump together worshipping before you, as i activated that regulator to allow that river to run and flow..

Worship, will never be the same again….
And i am really sure You delight in us dancing before You with all that is within us, freely and not ashamed to lay every part within us that need a miraculous touch from You.

i recently had this opportunity to hang out wif some parents and kids at the zoo…It was pretty much of an exposure. Since the last mTrip, i guess i began to discovers things i never thot i was able to accomplish..mainly interacting with kids..

After about 3hours of walking and observing, most of the adults can hardly keep up with the kids, their energy is just so amazing. Me too let out a sigh of relief,as we were waiting for our food to be served during lunch…

One thing that really caught me was, all of us were physically tired, we thirst, we hunger, But instead of feeding on the food that lay right before us FIRST, parents always offer and ensure their kids get fed FIRST, across the table is all the same for every parent…

Isit just a natural instinct that’s inbuilt in mankind and even mammals to be able to put aside their selfish desires/needs in order to provide the basic necessity of survival for their offspring..

If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him! – Matt 7:11

It strike me, unsaved as humans kind seems to be, the factual truth is we are make in the image of God, in the heart of your innermost being, we are more Christ-like than we chose to believe we are..

And that if earthly parents, is able to put aside all their natural baggage so to speak, and provide, how much more the One who has infinity supplies in His hand,always looking out for me, always making sure that i have all i need, despite my playfulness i just have to come to the table and partake..and best of all, He never gets tired or mood swings like any other parents.

As i was reflecting abt this truth, it reminded me of 2 incidents that happen recently in my own personal life:

One which i got caught 3am watching k-drama and feeling guilt-conscious, i was expecting a big-time nagging session the nxt morning before i head for work..yet mum handled it totally differently, with nice concern and advise this time round…Second, dad has this expensive herbal grass like thingy that is for his own consumption that in his believes will increase strength and vitality, yet he pass it to me, thinking i need it more..

Indeed How much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him! How much more…in that i set my heart at REST.